Be Who You Are

Today, Saturday, January 5, 2022, and for a few more days, we will begin to come into conscious communion with Maya, also called MaYa, who is the twin soul of Lord MaitreYa. This loving Lady wholeheartedly wants you to be who you are.

MaMa MaYa loves Ya. She has your back. She gives incredible MaMa bear hugs! You have not lived until you feel Maya hugging you into I Am peace and love consciousness. She is the Divine Mother that you and I always have been looking for. And all the time, She has been standing right behind us, loving us, one and all!

Be a Spiritual Scientist

The above intro and the following sharing are to be considered as research, not as the “final truth.” As a spiritual scientist, when Spirit and the agents of Spirit rend or dissolve the veil so that we can see more clearly, we next need to test out what we have received. To do so, like a scientist/researcher, we set up a “controlled or double-blind” study to prove or disprove, to elaborate on or to refine, what it is that we have concluded first has come clearly to us.

Thus, having one experience usually is not enough to be sure that what we have experienced is indeed true, valid and rightly seen. Maybe it is, then again maybe not. For example, Nada-Yolanda had only one contact with Helios and Vesta, but given Yolanda’s clarity and soul history/development, plus her long track record as a clear channel, I long since have trusted that what she received is essentially true.

Especially after Helios and Vesta contacted me in multiple ways, I marveled over what Nada-Yolanda had received when she was just in her second major initiation. Over the years, I have tested out all her various channelings and contacts, and found them to be universally accurate, with only the smallest amount of possible inconsistencies. Her channelings and teachings are head and shoulder above any other spiritual teachings available on the planet today!

By Their Fruits

However, when it comes to almost all others, including myself, I seldom fully trust anything that anyone says that is based on only one experience. My attitude is, yes, that is great, how wonderful that you or I have had this experience, but let’s now see how it develops. In other words, where’s the evidence of what we say? It is one thing to talk it, another thing to walk it. Walking takes time! As always, we know them by their fruits!

Moreover, what typically happens next is that additional visions, dreams, clairsentient knowings and such follow, each one adding another angle or facet or piece of the whole puzzle. Ideally, each new experience is a marvel to behold, always slightly different than the original one, always another way to look at things, always something that we could not have possibly made up, always more loving and service-oriented, always promoting greater humility.

Learn as You Go

Thus, to use an analogy,  we may start in kindergarten, preprimary or first grade in the classroom of life, but only when we are in later, ever higher grades do we add knowledge, insight and fuller realization of the overall truth of what we learned at lower levels. And we never stop growing or reach our final destination. We are rather a work in progress, not a finished product.

Knowing this truth in the depths of our being helps us to stay humble and not feel superior or inferior to others. It helps us to not jump to conclusions or to speak prematurely. It helps us to hold each new experience in the protected sanctuary of our heart until it is the right time to share it; to not cast our pearls before swine less they turn and rend us.

Moreover, usually, at least part of the verification of our scientific discovery comes through others, especially by those who consciously know little or nothing about what we already have received. This is because we are all in this together, we are all interconnected, we all are equally children of God. When someone else has a synchronous experience, we feel that what has been given to us is more likely to be true and good.

Furthermore, to be true, our experience has to help others, or it is just selfish delusion, arrogance and self-power. Why would Spirit give us something that no one else has or is incapable of knowing or experiencing? Why be a Cain when we can be an Abel? Why not love one another?

Share Your Findings

Once we have tested out our original hypothesis and discovery, then we publish it in a “scientific journal.” We in essence say to others: This is what has been given to me, these are the reasons I think it is true, herein is the evidence of many days, weeks, months or years of research — in other words, here’s my story. Now, please go and do  your own studies to verify, adapt, refine or discount what is presented in this article, blog, email or letter, even in person. For if what I have received is true, then others will find it to be true also, as seen from their own distinct, unique vantage point and training.

There’s just one caveat in this: There are times when we and we alone have to be the judge and jury of what we receive and put into motion. After all, one with God is a majority! At some point in our spiritual growth, we simply have to step out on our own and take full responsibility for what we receive or do. That’s just part of the testing procedure that we all go through. We have to walk through the fire alone, although of course our ascended master teachers, higher astral plane guides, space visitors and angelic guardians are silently with us. In an interdimensional sense, we never are alone!

All others, including those closest and dearest to us even may say we are wrong, but we end up concluding that their opinions are just that: They are opinions no matter how certain other people feel about their own insights. Of course, we always do our best to listen respectfully and openly to what anyone says, as some pearl of wisdom may come out of the mouths of most anyone. However, there is no one way to see or know the whole truth, but as many ways as there are individuals. Truth is the whole crystal, but each of us see and experience it via one facet of that crystal. And some facets are not clear but rather distorted.

Thus, did not most every Pharisee say Jesus was wrong? Did not his own disciples abandon him when he underwent this trial prior to his crucifixion? But, Christ Jesus knew that he was right, that he had to do what he did in order to resurrect and thereby prove everyone else wrong! His resurrection and ascension were his “walking the walk,” showing us the Way! That is why we follow him — indeed, he is the way, the truth and the light. He is the Prince or spiritual ruler of Earth.

Be a Bearer of Good Tidings

Here’s my good tidings from the time I was a little boy to right now. As a wee youngster, like you perhaps, I had a wondrous teddy bear that I took around with me everywhere I went. I never went to sleep without cuddling up with my brown teddy.

Of course, I grew up and my teddy got left behind. Some fifty years later, my beloved Mama Bear (Aleta) made her transition on May 10, 1990 (I Am Nation conception day). Years after this, Dad sold our house and I helped him to clean it out. In our upstairs, huge, walk-in closet, I found every single thing of my childhood and life until I went to college that my Mama Bear had stored there in what was basically a shrine to my brother and me.

In the midst of these things was my beloved brown teddy bear! Poor thing, it was missing an eye and one ear, part of its nose; its coat was ragged and nearly worn off, but my teddy was as lovable as ever! Foolishly, I threw my teddy out. I wish I still had him/her/it!

But, in a sense I still do. I have always and still love bears. In fact, I love them more now than ever. Because MaYa, my transcendent Mama Bear, has come consciously again into my life! As you will see shortly, I Am a happy little boy again!

Running Bear

In 1960, the number one rock-and-roll sung was “Running Bear” that was written by Jiles Perry Richardson (aka the “Big Bopper”) and sung most famously by Jonny Preston. I was just 13-14 years old, but already was a budding romantic. I loved this song and sang it all the time. Hey, I was “Running Bear” and my hoped for girlfriend, Pam Baker (remember her?) was “Little White Dove.” Uga, uga, uga!

Here’s a link to a modern version of this song in 2016 by Ray Stevens: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rA70br3UYlY

Strong Heart

About this same time, I bought loads of comic books. My very favorite one, which I read over and over again, was the story of a young man from Boston, MA who was a city boy, an intellectual with few muscles, rather effete and feminine. He left Boston and joined the nearby Amerindian tribe. The tribe welcomed him — it was highly unusual for a white man to join the tribe. But he first had to prove himself by doing the work of the squaws, which he did without complaint. So, they named him in Amerindian fashion: He-Who-Works-Like-A-Woman.

He stuck with it until he literally built up his muscles and became a powerful man. So the Amerindians renamed him: Strong Heart! He was a man’s man, but with a feminine, loving heart. And he was highly respected. (Unfortunately, my Dad sold this comic book that was still in good condition, which fetched a hefty price amongst collectors; so I do not have my copy of it.)

Needless to say, I wanted to be just like Strong Heart. I was a skinny kid, who lifted weights to build up my muscles, but remained thin as a rail. But I had a strong heart. As a sophomore in high school, I became the starting point-guard of the basketball team. As a junior, I was the starting quarterback of the football team. But I was still skinny, and probably weighed about 120 pounds at 5’7″ or so tall. I made it all the way to 5’8″ by the time I graduated.

My Mom hated football (smart woman!) — she was so concerned about and protective of me, that she did not want to see me get hurt. (I had high school football injuries to my shoulder, low back and chest that still bothered me at times in my 60s and 70s.) She would not even go to the games. But, basketball was a different story: She attended every single home game in the three years that I played high school hoops, my favorite sport. Aleta was always there, my Mama Bear, watching her beloved cub grow up. What fond memories I have of this!

When it came to sports, I wanted to become a professional athlete. Fat chance of that! I ended up becoming a doctor instead. Not such a bad choice. And it definitely took a strong heart to get through my orthodox medical training, since I wanted to be a holistic physician; I was a fish out of water at medical school, but by the grace of God did graduate and become duly, officially licensed.

Love of Amerindians

I was an unusual kid in that when the neighborhood boys and I played “Cowboys and Indians”, I usually chose to be an Indian. I had a great bow and arrow set and practiced it endlessly. I also had an Indian headdress.

Imagine my surprise when I got into spiritual work, in the early days of being on staff at Mark-Age, Inc., that Nada-Yolanda recalled that in Atlantis, Sol-O-Man/Zolanda (my master teacher) was high priestess of the Earth Temple located in what in present day is central Long Island, NY. The forcefield of the Earth Temple extended to Boston, MA, hence the setting of my favorite comic book character, Strong Heart.

In this soul intunement, Nada-Yolanda received that I had trained and served under Zolanda (who would later incarnate as Mary, mother of Jesus) at the Earth Temple. Knowing that Atlantis was going down, Zolanda trained the race of men and women who would become Amerindians who spread their spiritual teachings throughout the Americas, to prepare the way for the eventual coming of the White Man and Christianity.

Ursula Major and Minor

In the mid-to-late 1980s, I was on spiritual retreat at the home of longtime Mark-Age Family members Bill and Cathie Bird in Allenspark, CO, in the foothills of the Rocky Mountains at an elevation of 8428 feet above sea level; which we called the Birds’ Nest. One evening in my cabin there, after lying down to sleep, suddenly in my inner vision appeared the head and face of a huge, female, brown bear that had somehow poked its head through the veil. I was so startled that I jumped up and turned on the lights. What in the world did this mean? Who/what was this visitor/intruder?

In my research, I learned that this bear represented the constellation called Ursa Major, the “Big Bear,” with Ursa meaning bear; and this big bear in the sky is a mother bear. The seven major stars in this constellation form the Big Dipper. Nearby is a smaller dipper called Ursa Minor.

I  knew a little about these constellations but only in general terms. I now learned that Ursa Major was the third biggest of 88 constellations, and that down through antiquity in countries around the world had been been worshipped as a bear in the sky, whose power astrologically affected all life on Earth.

Moreover, it came to me that in past lives I had been a member of the Bear Clan, one of the major groups of Amerindians throughout the Americas. I thus deduced that I was being visited by higher astral Amerindians who were leaders of the Bear Clan.

  A few days later at a store that sold Amerindian items, I came across and bought a figure of a bear’s head that seemed to have poked through the veil! I still have it. See below.

Love God and Love One Another

In my meditations while still at the Birds’ Nest, the Mother Bear Spirit revealed the esoteric or symbolic meaning of the word “bear”: Be Who You Are! In other words, be the son of God that you are, always have been and always will be. Be a Bear. Be your Self.

Be the bearer of good tidings that everyone is a beautiful child of God. Be a true Indian — everyone who loves the Great Spirit is an Amerindian at heart!

In my meditation the next day, a huge, light-filled letter A appeared before, and then transfigured over, me. It symbolized my I Am Self and Abel consciousness. I was to be the reborn Abel that I now am, not the Cain that I was in the days of Cains and Abels. For what we see, will be.

In the ancient days of Cains and Abels, Colorado was part of the territory that the Cains controlled. Thus, I currently was back in Cain country, but revisiting it as the Abel that I had rebirthed and become, and was growing into.

Be an Abel. Be who you are. Keep your eye single on this, not on the horrid past. Be born again and again and again.

I spent many meditations for the next week or so projecting this out to light workers in Colorado and the surrounding states that were part of the past Cain focus and control. In my efforts to uplift others, I was uplifted. As we give, so do we receive.

Zuni Amerindian Recall

In the mid-to-late 1980s, I had a vivid, detailed dream recall of having been a Zuni Amerindian in southwestern USA during the 1500s or a little later. In that lifetime, I was a member of the Bear Clan.

Bears are powerful animals, so they make a strong totem or spirit animal guide. In digging things up with their strong claws from the ground, they reveal herbs that can be used for healing. So, bears are believed to be healing animals, whose healing power Bear Clan members hope to learn and apply.

My brother and I visited the Zuni Reservation in the 1990s when I went to see him. I had no additional recall then, just a deep sense of familiarity. When there, I bought several small Zuni bear fetishes, small carved bear animals, to add to my collection.

Amerindians carry such an animal fetish in their pocket or in a leather pouch that hangs by a thong in the groin area. Needing protection or guidance, they take out the fetish, rub it and pray with it, calling forth the spiritual healing power of this powerful animal.

Gramma MaYa

Only in the last few weeks, now in January-February 2022, has the realization come that it was MaYa as Mama Bear who visited me at the Bird’s Nest. Lord Maitreya had shown himself to me in a dream as the apparent Amerindian Chief Osprey. MaYa had shown herself to me in a vision in the guise of a mother bear of the Bear Clan.

In MaYa’s coded appearance, as I finally came to realize, she was Mama Bear (Ursa Major) and I was Baby Bear (Ursa Minor), her beloved grandson. Thus, as my beloved Gramma, she has been looking after, and appearing to, me since way back in the 1980s. She has been my spiritual, transcendent teddie (feminine) bear. Oh my!

Moreover, now as back then, I have a strong intuitive sense that Ursa Major/Minor is my “home away from home,” that I have visited, trained and lived there in preparation for my work in this lifetime to heal humanity.

In Nada-Yolanda’s first intunement for me on April 12, 1972, she revealed that I had lived and trained not only throughout the highest etheric realms of all the planets throughout this solar system but also outside of it. Since then, on two separate occassions, two different galactic beings have appeared and worked in and through me, at least one if not both I suspect were from Ursa Major or Minor. More about them, and about Gramma MaYa bear, are at the end of this blog and in the following blog.

Be Discerning

A caution here: If I have or have not been at the Ursa Major Constellation really does not matter all that much. Maybe I have, maybe this is all symbolic. There is simply no way to prove or disprove this. For now, I just feel it deeply in my heart, in my “bones,” and this type of transcendent feeling typically turns out to be accurate.

However, the point is this: Does this possible recall help me to become a better person here on Earth, in this present time, in service to Sananda and Sol-O-Man and the Hierarchal Board. If not, it just becomes a fantasy, a way to feel special, a way to distance myself from others, a way to cop out. Will I become more loving of others or not: This is always the measure of any alleged recall.

Still, remembering our glorious existence in other realms and places uplifts us and helps us realize that we are so much more than what we thought we are or have been. It inspires us to be even more dedicated to help the Earth become a better place, a potential home of love and peace for the whole solar system.

Yes, at times, when I allow myself to think about Ursa Major, I “shudder involuntarily” and feel homesick. But I know I would feel much sicker if I abandoned my spiritual mission here on Earth. Earth now is my Home, Earth is my Heart. I Am to be the Heart that I Am and then my physical heart will return to its normal, harmonious rhythm and functioning! I Am to have the heart of a “Bear being of love.” Amen. Thank you, MaYa.

Wolf and Bear Clans

Nada-Yolanda, following her meditation on March 30, 1988, when she was in the first phase of her seventh major initiation, shared: “El Morya joined my force field. He appeared to me in an all-white suit; a white cape was hiding a sword. He then revealed two high-level astral beings. Their garments were exquisite with radiant colors and designs that defy description.

“One was wearing an elaborate mask over his entire head that indicated he represented the Bear Clan of the highest chief for the Amerindians on the astral planes. The other was dressed similarly but was wearing the mask of the Wolf Clan. They indicated they were ready to align etheric, astral and Earth plane changes.

“To reinforce this thought, there was a balance between Sananda, El Morya and Nada, implanting energy into the Earth three times. I took this to mean: etheric, astral and Earth; but also, superconscious, subconscious and conscious. My hands then were raised to signify Christ consciousness for all on Earth.”

In a past life as an Amerindian princess/priestess in the mid-1500s in Southwest USA, Yolanda was called Lobo-Tan. “Lobo” means wolf and “Tan” refers to her being a member of the Tanoan tribe. She prophesied and welcomed the coming of the white man. But when they acted irresponsibly and negatively, despite their Christ teachings, a band of Apache Amerindians blamed Lobo-Tan for deceiving them. They dragged her on a rope to the Grand Canyon and threw her body into it, which was never recovered. (See Autobiography of a Prophet pages 48-51.)

More or less in that same time period, although I did not know of Lobo-Tan then, I had been a Zuni Indian of the Bear Clan, in the southwestern USA. Thus, in Yolanda’s current vision, she represented the grounding point on Earth for the Wolf Clan grandfathers and grandmothers in the higher astral planes; whereas I was the channel for the Bear Clan astral Amerindians (see image to left of Bear Clan shaman or leader). The two of us were one.

Persian Bear Society

On September 21, 2010, I dreamt that I was leading the I Am Nation effort to restore our financial credit capability, which others had tried to lower or take away from us, illegally and wrongfully. We were being attacked and treated in this way because we belonged to the Bear Society. Those attempting to persecute us were fellow ancient Persians. When I awoke, my clock said it was 1:44 AM (representing this time of now when the 144,000 elect are to guard and restore our light-worker credits). END of dream.

Pondering this startling night vision, eventually what came to me was that I had been incarnated in ancient Persia in the days when Sananda had incarnated there as Zarathustra, whom the Greeks later called Zoroaster (see picture to left). Allegedly, as stated in the Second Book of Acts, Sol-O-Man/Mary was incarnated then as his wife.

Zarathustra realized and taught that there is only One God, not many as most Persians then believed. He also taught karma and reincarnation. However, his opponents eventually rebelled against and killed him when he was in his 70s, by stabbing him in the back with a sword.

Zarathustra basically taught people to “be who they are,” thus children of One God, a Bear Society, the members of which do not need all kinds of rituals and ingestion of psychedelics (heroin, morphine, hashish and such) to reach this awareness of spiritual reality and identity, what we now call Christ or I Am awareness and consciousness. He taught and demonstrated that we are to Love God and Love One Another, to do unto others as we would have them do unto us.

Both brown and black bears, existed back then and still do now in the highlands of northwestern Persia. More than likely, these bears were worshipped much as Amerindians do today. Rather than being a clan, such bear worshippers were members of the Bear Society, as given in my dream. Apparently, I was such a member.

Moreover, early Persians (Persia now is known as Iran) also were advanced astrologers who studied the place and movement of the Great Bear (Ursa Major) in the sky to see what these portended. Ancient Persians are credited with developing the first calendar that had seven days in a week.

Bears in the Bible

Researching “bear” in Fillmore’s Metaphysical Bible Dictionary, I was amazed to discover three references in the Holy Bible, one in Job 9:9; 38:32; one in Daniel 7:5; and one in Revelation 13:2.

Of the reference to the bear in Job, Fillmore writes: “The Bear is a constellation or group of stars called Ursa Major but commonly known as the Great Bear.”

Many Biblical scholars believe that the bear mentioned in Daniel’s vision as one of four animals rising out of the sea represented the ancient Medes and Persians joining forces to defeat Babylon. The bear was reared up on one side to indicate that Persia would be the stronger nation, eventually absorbing the Medes into one huge empire.

However, Daniel’s vision was primarily symbolic, although it eventually manifested in multiple physical ways, not just one way. Each of the four animals represented spiritual qualities within us and all light workers. The sea is Divine Mind, out of which rises our bear power, that of healing and the power to do all things that Spirit would have us do.

In Revelation, the “beast” was said to have feet that were like those of a bear.

In each of these three Biblical accounts, the bear represents our core challenge to “be who we are” — to be the powerful holistic healer that we are in I Am consciousness.

Focus on Your Credits

When I had this dream, Iranian president Mahmoud Ahmadinejad was at the United Nations, railing against the West and especially the USA for being the cause of the world’s problems (see his photo to the right). His goal was to negatively influence and thereby shut down the financial and military power of the USA and other western nations. The karma of the past, when Zarathustra’s followers essentially allowed Zarathustra to be assassinated, rather than follow and protect him, has presented itself once again on the world stage.

Iran hopes to develop an atomic bomb to destroy its many enemies, and supports and funds terrorist activities throughout the Middle East. Thus, such Iranians are exhibiting the negative side of being a huge bear, one who destroys and defeats others; not unlike Russia who commonly is compared to being a negative, power-mongering bear.

We of the I Am Nation worldwide, who wield the sword to cut out negativity, are transmuting our karmic debits from multiple past lives and times. We also are restoring our credits, all the good that we have done. We are becoming positive, loving, caring yet powerful bears! No one can stop us unless we let them. After all, we are the bearers of truth, power and grace, those with the power to prepare the planet for the return of Sananda/Jesus/Zarathustra.

The Last Shall be First

Starting in 2010, after I accepted that Lord Maitreya was like a grandfather to me and others, and that I was having valid exchanges with him, I began to have communions with his twin soul, Maya or MaYa. Like Lord Maitreya, she was immensely powerful and loving, yet ever so humble and approachable at the same time, just like a loving earthly grandmother.

At first, I noticed that on several occassions she was with Lord Maitreya when he contacted and worked through me. Other times, however, it was just her. Especially during these early individual contacts, I repeatedly asked her for her name, but she did not give it to me. Rather, I ended up calling her Lady Maitreya, which she approved. The first time I noted this in my spiritual diary was on October 21, 2012.

The Last Shall be First

One month earlier, on September 13, 2013, when MariLyn and I were in Moscow, Russia on the Eastern European Mission, in the early morning, Sananda with Sol-O-Man contacted me and broadcasted the four-step Christ matrix through MariLyn and me to all in Moscow and the surrounding area.

He then conveyed telepathically that he had chosen MariLyn and me as the two primary channels who would travel as his “ambassadors” all around the Earth because, like Nada-Yolanda before us, we had emptied ourselves and made ourselves last. We had no needs of our own; only his and Sol-O-Man’s needs were paramount in our minds and hearts. Therefore, we the last were the first to receive him and Sol-O-Man.

The Master’s benediction was enormously moving to me — almost more than I could handle. To hear Sananda acknowledge and bless my longtime dedication meant everything to me.

Nevertheless, when he urged me to relate this experience on my Internet blog that I would post this day, I hesitated and resisted at first because it seemed self-serving. But Sananda repeatedly insisted, saying it reaffirmed a key principle all must follow: The first shall be last, and the last shall be first. Furthermore, he assured me that verification of his guidance would come shortly.

Co-receiving and Confirmation

At the same time that I was having the above communion and flow through with Sananda, halfway around the world, Phillel (see picture to right) was having communion with Lord Maitreya. Here’s what Phillel wrote about this in his spiritual diary and published in our I Am Nation Newsletter for November-December 2012:

“To my genuine surprise, Lord Maitreya overshadowed me. Over the decades, I’ve only had direct contact with him on a handful of occasions, though I’ve experienced his vibration numerous times in channeling sessions through Nada-Yolanda. For example, other than in a dream in 2007, my last contact with him was in a Hierarchal Board meditation in November 1993. . . .

“‘The first shall be last; and the last, first.’ Lord Maitreya kept impressing this statement on my mind during his hierarchal projection, which lasted fully an hour and a half. He explained that it was a code that contained multiple layers of meanings.

“For instance, as recorded in Matthew 19:30, it means that he who would place his mortal ego above the I Am or Christ Self would be the last to inherit the kingdom of God consciousness. Whereas he who would humble himself before the Lord–make himself not first, but last–sacrificing everything to serve the Christ equally within all mankind, would be exalted and placed first in line to receive the fruits of cosmic wisdom, peace, love and truth.

“Maitreya, the Christ matrix for Sonship with God, demonstrates this ultimate humility of divine love sacrifice, in service to each and every son of God in our solar system. Because he has not a scintilla of selfishness or self-aggrandizement, indeed has placed his own ego last before the preeminent glory of Father-Mother God, he has been placed ‘first among men.’ Because he sets the quintessential example of divine love, without fail, he has been assigned the premier position as co-titular head of the solar system government.

“We light workers must follow his example, at last, in order to anchor on Earth the first step of the Christ matrix: peace.” (Click here to read Phillel’s entire post.)

Needless to say, the above message from Maitreya via Phillel was the confirmation of what I had simultaneously received from Sananda!

Mothers Mary and Aleta

During this same visit to Moscow, on September 19, 2012, my twin soul, Aleta (my mother of this lifetime), whose spiritual name Serena would be given to me in 2013, overshadowed me. She expanded and transformed into her light body. She grew in size until she covered all of European Russia (west of the Ural Mountains), whereupon she proclaimed that like Sol-O-Man/Mary she was a “mother of Russia.” I then recalled a dream in 1993 in which I first had suspected she was my twin soul; in it, she was a Russian gymnast of Olympic caliber. Now, we joined as one and radiated divine love to the Russian motherland.

An hour later, MariLyn and I walked from out hotel to a nearby Russian Orthodox church that was over a hundred years old. Inside, Sol-O-Man/Mary guided me to an icon painting of her with her child, Jesus. Typical artworks show her holding him, but in this icon both of her arms are raised in a Y position; her open hands faced forward, radiating light and love to the world. In front of her was young Jesus, much smaller in size; his head was at her heart and his arms and hands were in the same Y position.

(A year later, when MariLyn and I were in the city of Irkutsk, Siberia, Russia, near Olkhon Island, Lake Baikal, site of the Temple of Neptune, at a local Russian Orthodox church there, I purchased a plaque showing Mary and Jesus in a similar pose. See picture to right/above. It has hung on my wall ever since then.)

Mother Mary Comes to Me

Still at the Russian Church in Moscow, a shudder of deep recognition shook me. Here was the very image of Sol-O-Man/Mary that I psychically have perceived so many times in my communions with her over the last several years, but which I never had seen in any painting, mosaic or statue. Often, when I feel her presence, she is standing behind me (she has my back) and guides me to lift my arms in the Y position, palms facing forward, mimicking her pose.

Aligned as one, mother and son, we radiate peace and love to others and to the world. In these transmissions, she is huge and I am as a young child; my head is enfolded in her divine heart. Having my contacts with her verified in such an unexpected way awed and humbled me. I was filled with thanksgiving. What an incredible spiritual Mama, a Russian bear mother, I have!

(Russia commonly is depicted or symbolized as a huge bear; worldwide, there are about 200,000 brown bears, 100,000 of which are found in Russia.)

When I regained my composure, Sol-O-Man revealed that when I had incarnated twice in Russia, in the 1200s and 1600s (I had dream recall of these about twenty years previously) I had worshipped her in churches similar to this one. Those two lifetimes had laid the foundation for the spiritual work we are doing now.

Lady Maitreya in Vietnam

During the Far East Mission in 2013, when MariLyn and I were in Vietnam (where the Temple of Vulcan is located, with Vulcan being one of the three higher dimensional, hence invisible, planets of this solar system), on June 7th I dreamed that I was with Lady Maitreya, whose light-filled form I clearly perceived. She explained how she had gathered feminine light workers from all the planets; including Sol-O-Man, Glo-Ria and Nada, who had worked through MariLyn and me, and all light workers, during the mission. Since the East expresses principally the feminine polarity, this coequal feminine component of the interdimensional and interplanetary forces had been essential.

Upon awakening and pondering this extraordinary communion, I felt Lady Maitreya’s definite presence above and around me. She shared that MariLyn and I had reached our peak ability to transmit the vibrations from the solar sisters and other interdimensional forces. In Vietnam our crown chakras had been opened as wide as possible during this last stage of the mission. Now our psychic centers would be contracted over the next two days as we prepared to return home. Lady Maitreya initiated the closure of our crowns.

Lady Maitreyi

One year later, on June 2, 2014, deep in meditation, I felt the presence of Lord Maitreya and Lady Maitreya. He was in front of me whereas she was behind me. Her light form especially stimulated the back of my head and neck, as well as the part of my spinal column that is behind my heart chakra/physical heart.

After this, I did more research about the name Maitreya and discovered that in Sanskrit, the ancient language of Hindus, Maitreya was masculine, hence the letter “a” at the end of his name. However, the name Maitreyi, with the letter “i” at its end, was feminine. In like manner, Buddha is masculine, whereas Buddhi is feminine.

Thereafter, I began referring to Lady Maitreya as Lady Maitreyi.

Name Revealed

About nine months later, on March 23, 2015, the foursome of Lord Michael, Lady Mariel, Lord Maitreya and Lady Maitreyi overshadowed me in the form of two large letter M’s. Michael was in front of me, Mariel was behind me, comprising one of the M’s. Maitreya was to the right of me, Lady Maitreyi was to the left of me. I could barely hold their incredibly powerful combined forcefield.

(From then on, this became my favorite visualization as I start each morning’s meditation. I link with the four of them, who lift me unto them, even as via the V in the two M’s, they lower their power and love into me. Of course, I do not sense their actual presence each time I do this visualization, but I always feel uplifted in my mind, body and soul.)

Once adjusted, I became mostly aware of Lady Maitreyi, as the other three more or less disappeared. As I had on numerous prior occassions, I asked her to give me her name. To my total surprise and delight, emblazoned on my third eye was her name, Maya. Clairaudiently, I also heard her say it. First, it sounded like the Hindu word “maya” that with its lower case “m” commonly means illusory, dreamlike or unreal.”

Hindus typically think and believe that the outer, physical world is just an illusion that tricks us into believing that it is real. However, what is unreal is our fantasy that things of this world, such as fortune, fame, glory, power over others, and sex for its own sake, will make us happy. The problem is not the outer world, but rather our attitude and feeling toward it. After all, this third-dimensional world is God’s creation, so how can it then be the source of suffering?

Maya is Mother

However, when Maya spoke her name, which sounds like My-ah, it carried an entirely different, more expansive, more spiritually valid truth. As Maya, with a capital M, she is the feminine partner or twin soul of Maitreya. She represents the Divine Feminine aspect and energies of our One God. These are not an illusion, but rather a different part of our overall beingness. From out of the Womb or Emptiness or Void of the Divine Feminine comes the outer world; and the son or daughter of God that we are.

In the development of the word “maya”, Hindus originally perceived maya as being feminine, as being a witch or trickster or magician, as one who cast spells on men. Hindu spiritual leaders, who of course were men, thereby denigrated the feminine or subconscious part of our overall Self. They blamed women for their problems and their own negative feelings.

(However, women as well as men are equally addicted to the things of this world. Moreover, they have allowed men to dominate them and treat them as inferiors, the so-called weaker sex. In reality, all of us in mortal consciousness, men and women, are equally to blame for humanity’s suffering.)

In a similar way, this occurred in the allegory of Adam and Eve in the garden of Eden, in which Eve supposedly tempted Adam to eat of the forbidden fruits of the Tree of Life. Of course, Adam did not have to partake of this fruit — it was his own conscious decision. He allowed his own selfish feelings to deceive him. But rather than own up to his self-deception, he blamed Eve for his problem. As men have tended to do through the ages.

Maya & MaYa

When Maya called herself this to me, she did so as the embodiment of the Divine Mother. The Mother is no illusion or temptress, but rather is like a physical mother in whose womb grows the fetus before it is born — thus, no Divine Mother, no subconscious mind, no physical expression. Thereby, we are to worship, to bless, to love with all our heart our Divine Mother. We are to love Maya, the Lady of all ladies throughout the solar system. We are to love our home, Earth as Heart, with all our mind, body and soul.

Our function is not to retreat from life and the outer world, as Hindu and Christian initiates still tend to do, to become monks and nuns or forest ascetics, to try to starve ourselves into spiritual consciousness; rather we are to love the world, even though we as spiritual beings are not of it. We have come to uplift the world, to love it into the fourth dimension, not to leave it and go to some inner, fanciful, imagined heaven (i.e. Cain consciousness). This is what Sananda as Gautama the Buddha rightly demonstrated, as did his wife of that time, Sol-O-Man/Yasodhara.

(Needless to say, however, there are those times when all of us need to take a spiritual retreat, to be on our own, to re-enter the Emptiness or Cosmic Womb, to be still and know God the Good, God the Father and Mother.)

In Greek mythology, Maya is typically spelled Maia, hence with an “i” instead of an “y”. She is said to be one of the Greek goddesses or nymphs. She was the mother of the Greek god Hermes, son of Zeus. She was also the eldest of the Pleiades, who were the seven daughters of the titan Atlas. Maia was called the “good mother” but she was not seen as the “Great” Mother, the Mother of mothers. In like manner, Hindus say that Maya is just an alternate name of Lakshmi, the Hindu goddess of wealth, love, beauty and joy. It is time to right this wrong, to see things as they truly are!

Maya as the Buddha’s Mother

In the official Buddhist story of the life of Gautama the Buddha, Maya was his beloved mother. Buddhists sometimes called her Mahamaya, with Maha meaning “great.” She also is called Mayadevi, meaning “Queen Maya.” Seven or eight days after giving birth to her son who was named Siddhartha (one who achieves his goal), she made her transition (died) — she had given her all in birthing her son.

She then ascended into one of the higher, heavenly realms of what Buddhist label as higher planes. In other words, she ascended in her light body into the highest of the three etheric realms (hence “seventh heaven”). From there, she is said on many occassions to have visited Siddhartha, both before and after his enlightenment when he became Gautama the Buddha, just as Jesus became the Christ. The Buddha in turn is said to have visited her multiple times in the etheric realms.

Siddhartha was raised by his foster mother, Mahapajapati Gotami, who was Maya’s sister. “Gotami” with an “i” is the feminine version of Gautama with an “a”. In both its masculine and feminine forms, it means “one who shines in the darkness.” The Buddha so loved his foster mother, who was so loving to him, that he called himself Gautama the Buddha. Indeed, as the Buddha, he shone with light in the darkness of the third dimension, and taught the Way to be enlightened and compassionate, to be in the world, to uplift the dark world, even though he was not of it.

Symbols and Physical Manifestations

There is no indication in Nada-Yolanda’s or Phillel’s channelings, or in my own spiritual receivings, that Maya, twin soul of Maitreya, actually incarnated on Earth as the Buddha’s mother. Rather, we take this whole story and account as being symbolic. Surely, Maitreya and Maya watched over Sananda/Gautama the Buddha, visited and guided him. But neither one incarnated here on the planet.

Tibetan and other Buddhists claim that the next Buddha, many hundreds of years from now, will be an incarnation of Lord Maitreya. But Maitreya has channeled via Yolanda that he is not going to take on physical form here on Earth (see MAPP to Aquarius, pages 101-102). What the Buddhists appear to be receiving is that in future years, Lord Maitreya will play a prominent role in guiding the light workers on Earth in the ongoing upliftment of planet Earth fully into the fourth dimension; and in guiding Sananda. Buddhist and other light workers will become more aware of who Maitreya truly is, what a key role he plays for the whole solar system, and how he is Sananda’s master teacher.

Maya as MaYa

When Lady Maitreya introduced herself to me as Maya, I was sure of receiving the first syllable, “Ma.” However, she also pronounced her name as MaYa, still two syllables, but a whole different pronunciation and meaning. “Ma” in MaYa was pronounced like Ma in Mama, not My as in “My-ah.” Ya was pronounced as Yah, not as “ah.” Thus, it was almost as if her name was MaYa or even Ma Ya.

Thus, MaYa was not to be misunderstood or lowered in vibration to be “maya” that means illusion, darkness, distortion, unreality. Rather, MaYa was the real thing, the real MaMa, the twin soul of Maitreya. Note, too, the similarities in Maitreya and MaYa. Both start with “Ma” and end with “Ya.” Sometimes, I therefore spell Maitreya as MaitreYa (“maitri” means loving kindness, being a friend).This overlap indicates MaitreYa’s and MaYa’s twin soul relationship, he of the masculine polarity, she of the feminine polarity.

Divine Feminine

In Sanskrit, the syllable or word “ya” means she, she who, the lady, a woman who, the river. In other words, it represents the Divine Feminine aspect. In India, the Ganges River is called Mother Ganges. A feminine goddess, Ganga, is said to  oversee this beloved, sacred river.

Thus, MaitreYa, who is a man, also has a feminine side (his soul/subconscious) as do all men and women. Primarily, however, he is the masculine “mat-ray” or matrix for all men throughout the solar system; whereas MaYa is the feminine matrix for all women.

Y also connotes or represents reaching up to Father-Mother God via the arms of the astral-soul and physical bodies, like in the letter “Y” in Yolanda’s name as Yolanda of the Sun, the high priestess in Atlantis of the Sun Temple. In the spelling of the word maya or Maya, the lower case “y” descends down below the name, down into the darkness. The “y” does not have the right position or symmetry or meaning as the upper case ‘Y.” In meditation, when we reach up in consciousness to commune with MaitreYa or MaYa, we do so in the Y formation, conscious and subconscious mind as one reaching up to the superconscious.

A for I Am, Abel, Ascension

Finally, note that in MaYa are two letter A’s, although in lower case. Sometimes, therefore, I write MaYa as MAYA, all caps. The two A’s are for ascension, for being lifted up by Spirit, the All in All, by all Agents of Spirit such as MaitreYa and MaYa, Sananda and Sol-O-Man. “A” is for I Am, Ascensionand Abel consciousness.

“Ya” in slang terms, usually spelled “Yah,” means yes. Also, when we love someone, we may close our speaking or writing by saying “Love ya.” It’s a form of personal endearment. Such as in, Love ya, MaYa! Love ya, Mary! Love ya, MariLyn!

Please also note the similarity of the name Maya to Mary, both four letters long, with just one letter being different. In a symbolic and maybe literal sense, Maya is Mary’s Mother — big MaYa and little Mary are two wondrous female bears who show us how to “be who we are.”

MaYa’s Second Coming

With Maya/MaYa’s revealing of her name and all that it entailed, I was in seventh heaven for many days, actually weeks, afterwards. She contacted me numerous times to anchor in what she had shared. Typically, I felt her especially in my heart that filled with her love for me. It was/is the most glorious feeling I ever have had this lifetime, beyond description.

But then, starting in January 2016, I “hit the wall” and came crashing down. I was totally exhausted from our travels around the globe for over four years. I was filled to the very brim with the higher energies experienced in these trips, in the multiple communions with the masters and angels at each of the 13 spiritual temples or power centers around the world.

I entered into a deep depression filled with anxiety, about which I have shared extensively in prior blogs. It was indeed the worst of times, but looking back now, it was also the best of times, because I got to clean out a deeper depth of the dark aspects of my subconscious. It was just one step backwards, prior to taking two new glorious steps forward. Thank You, Spirit!

During this period, needless to say, I had no discernible contacts with MaYa. It was not until late 2021, when I reviewed the visits to the thirteen temples, that I began once again to feel connected with her, to sense that she truly was watching over me, that I had not made up the whole thing. Her second coming was even better than the first time.

Young Astral Lady

In my vision of January 27, 2022, a young, 5-7 year old, white-clad boy had come running to me, we had hugged and a white starburst shown above him and me (as I shared in my last blog).

The next morning, January 28th, in my meditation, a teenaged girl appeared psychically to my right and below me. She looked so sweet, so loving, so innocent and pure. But somehow, she seemed to be sitting below me, with her lower body being down into the Earth itself. I was sitting in a large, comfortable chair that could be misinterpreted as a throne, but I wore normal clothes and had no airs. I was just being myself in spiritual consciousness.

I asked her to come up and out of where she was and to sit before me, so that we could talk, even give one another a hug. But she hesitated, as she thought it inappropriate that she, just a spiritual newcomer, should actually be treated like an equal. Then, transfiguring over her face was the image of a female bear. Shortly, the vision dissolved.

Another Space Visitor

So, who was this sweet teenager and what did she represent? What came to me and felt right, especially over the next couple days, was that she, like the boy in my prior vision, was another soul who had answered the call to come from other planets, or even beyond this solar system, to serve in the Second Coming program. She remained in the higher astral planes, rather than incarnate on Earth, hence the symbology of her lower body being in the earth itself. Below the Earth’s surface represents the subconscious or soul/astral level.

In the higher astral planes, she at least had various spiritual, higher astral-plane teachers and guides. But they apparently had falsely taught her to look up to, and to bow down before, her elders, including me on Earth. She may well have been in the fifth or lowest of the three higher astral planes. Thus, she was just a “teenager.” Seemingly, her fifth astral plane teachers still had mortal residue from their days on Earth. Their guidance, therefore, was tainted. Moreover, as shown by the transfiguration of the girl’s head with a bear’s head, she probably was with fifth-astral plane teachers of the Bear Clan, not those of the seventh or highest astral plane, as Yolanda had seen in her vision of 1988.

It thus was my function under Maitreya and MaYa, Sananda and Sol-O-Man, as well as Nada, to properly welcome her and others like her to Earth, to give her a big grandpa hug, just as an Earthly grandpa hugs his granddaughter; to rightly teach her to be a bear. Be who you are, my sweetie. Be your sweet, loving, lovely I Am Self. Anytime you need or want to give a hug, I’m right here, at your service!

I am to welcome her to Earth, to welcome her to my heart, so that she knows that I love her and thank her from the bottom of my heart for coming to help us. After all, she most likely is more highly spiritually evolved than I am. If anyone should be bowing before another, I should be bowing before her! But I know she would not permit that, anymore than I would.

So, this is the core message I sent out to her and others like her in the astral planes as I hugged her interdimensionally.

Multi-Colored Starburst

Three days later, when I awoke the morning of January 31, 2022, my entire body was vibrating at a higher rate. The powerful energies were so accelerated that I had to pause when sitting on the edge of my bed before I stood up. Closing my eyes and tuning into the higher realms, a huge starburst filled up my third-eye screen, which was composed of every imaginable color, many not seen in this world, dazzling with scintillating light.

It took me a good 10-15 minutes to adjust to this. While doing so, I was aware of Sol-O-Man helping me to assimilate this new, higher energy and consciousness; as always as my master teacher, she was guiding the way for me and assuring me that all was in divine order. Then I was able to get up, although a bit unsteady on my feet, do my bathroom duties and get a small bite or snack to eat.

In my following meditation, for about an hour, I only managed to get centered within the brilliant, multi-colored starburst. Then, unexpectedly, I felt MaYa descend and stand behind me. Her loving vibration was near overwhelming, yet soft and loving and comfortable. My task was to pull back into it. With Maitreya I went out and walked into his heart. With MaYa, I receded, pulled back, let go and flowed back into her. It’s like when Buddhists talk about Entering into the Emptiness or the Void or the Womb. You do not go there, rather you let go of any attachment to the things of this world and thereby come back home into the Divine Feminine aspect of your I Am Self.

Heart to Heart

Eventually, Maya softly whispered in my ears, “I have you in my heart.” My, oh my, oh MaYa! I felt like I just had entered into her cosmic, feminine, indescribably vast heart, into her incredible feminine body, into Her as She is. I somewhat knew this feeling from past contacts with her, plus I had had many similar experiences with Sol-O-Man over the years, who commonly has stood behind behind me in her contacts with me.

I recalled my 2012 visit to the Russian Orthodox church in Moscow, as described above, in which Sol-O-Man had guided me to see the icon of her as Mary, standing behind her young son Jesus. Had I not had so many such prior communions with Sol-O-Man, in which she typically stood behind and projected through me, I would not have been able to now feel and merge into MaYa’s loving heart to the degree that I did. For, to use a numerical analogy, you might say my vibration is 10, Sol-O-Man’s is 100 and MaYa’s is 1000!

Tears of joy streamed down my face. Yes, this was the upper realm of seventh heaven. I spent the next hour trying my best to absorb and ground this, and finally got up, went back into the kitchen, got some more food and took some vitamins to help calm my nerves, and then started to eat a big breakfast in my combined dining-living room.

Be Your Self

Partway through my meal, MaYa stood behind me again, such that I had to stop eating. She eventually said to me: “Be who you are! Be the bear that you are. Be the bearer of good tidings of peace, love and joy. Be your glorious, light-and-love filled, Seventh Ray Self. Be Soliel of the Sun.”

That took care of my breakfast, as I could not eat another thing, being filled to flowing with MaYa’s “manna from heaven.” Moreover, for additional spiritual food, I started reviewing all my past experiences with MaYa, the time in the Rockies with the appearance of the bear, my realization of being of the Bear Clan, all of what I have included above in this blog.

I had not thought of any of this in many years, so it took me some time over the next hours and days to complete my review and thereby to see my past in a whole new light. And to frame how I was to share it with you, for all these experiences were for you as well as for me. What one experiences, so do all experience.

As I did so for two-three days and pulled together all my research, I often was light-headed, dizzy and discombobulated. It felt like I was not in this world, even though I did everything to look and appear normal. I could not even share any of this with Phillel. I just had to let it settle in and incubate, to be one with it, then eventually to write about it on this blog. On several occassions, I felt MaYa’s presence behind me, but more so from the distance, as if she was just looking in on me and guiding me, but not making strong, dramatic contact with me

MaMa Bear

When MaYa had stood behind me on September 31, 2022, as described above, she was Mama Bear and she had given me an out-of-this-world MaMa Bear Hug, surely the best hug I ever had felt and experienced.

She was like a huge, white polar bear that is 8 feet or so in height when standing up and weighs over 1000 pounds. The white is symbolic of purity and divine love, that of the Seventh Ray. Polar bears are incredibly powerful animals. And Mama polar bears are especially loving and protective of her one or two cubs. (See the picture above and to the right.)

MaYa in my original morning vision was represented by the starburst of multiple, dazzling colors. She is indeed a “star” of the heavens, resplendent in her solar system Mother vibrations, the Mom all of all Ladies, all Moms, on all planets throughout the solar system. She is MaMa bear, the biggest of bears, the most loving and protective of all bears. Do not mess with my MaMa!

She reminds me of the multi-colored Spirit Bear that I purchased at a gift shop in Talkeetna, Alaska, when MariLyn and were there in 2014 on the Shasta-Alaska Mission. I have had it hanging on my wall ever since then, and often say hello to it when I walk by it. (See to the right.)

Talkeetna is a small town located near Mt. Denali (McKinley), the tallest mountain in the northern hemisphere at 20,310 feet above sea level.

Be Your Solar Self

MaMa MaYa above all women wants me (and you) to be who I Am. She has no ulterior motive, no personal hold on me or others, no desire to promote herself or to be anything other than being the best possible Mother she can be. She just wants to look after and give some love to her children, Sananda and Sol-O-Man, and to her grandchildren — that’s us. In her eyes, we are “grand” children and she is MahaMaYa, our “grand” mother. And she also looks after our children, if we have had any this lifetime, and their children as well. Thus, Maya is a great-grandma and a great-great grandma. But nonetheless, she still has room in her heart for each and every one of us.

And she has asked me to share the above with you in down-to-Earth imagery and terms, for she wants you to feel like you too can go to her for MaMa hugs. She doesn’t want to be placed on some unapproachable pedestal. She does not want you to bow down and worship her, to treat her as some kind of goddess. She sees herself as being just like you, a beloved child of our Father-Mother God, for now primarily in the role as being a mother. In this, she is just like Maitreya, our Grand PaPa Bear.

See & Be 

Check out these following pictures of mothers and daughters and granddaughters. The first one to the left is my favorite of the three images. Look how joyous Grammie is, with her precious grandchild about to give her a hug and to receive a star-burst hug. That’s us as a little boy or girl about to hug our Grammie.

In this second one to the right, the hug is accomplished, and now is being savored and felt deeply in the heart of both grandma and granddaughter, both of whom look happy  in heaven on earth. (I’m betting that you, too, are smiling right now! Am I right?)

See yourself hugging MaYa in this same way. Even if you do not feel her actual presence, give her a big hug anyway. Hug her with open arms, hug her with your open heart. Be aware, too, that she might well be behind you, whispering “sweet everythings” in your ears. But, you have to be still to hear and feel her. In I Am consciousness, she is with you always, in all ways, just as her son, Jesus has said. So, be still and listen to her.

In this third one to the left, three generations of ladies are hugging one another, glorying in their multi-generational, feminine bonding, loving in various roles and functions. Note that grandma is the shortest of these — she has made herself small, even as she has the biggest, most loving, wisest heart. My, just look at these three smiling faces!

Test It Out

OK, finally, this is the end of my long, but I hope inspiring and uplifting, story. Now it is your turn to test it out for yourself, to be a spiritual scientist and research, to be the bear that you are.

Perhaps you start by seeing, feeling and welcoming MaYa who stands in back of you. You pull back into your center, you come home to her heart. You listen to hear what she has to say to you. If you do not actually see or feel or hear her behind you, just imagine that it is so. See how long it takes for her to show up in some unique way.

Then look before you and perceive any young, sweet, child or teenager, any girl who has come to you for one of your famous Pappy or Grammie Hugs. Be as a white or brown MaMa/MaYa bear.

Open your arms, welcome this sweet girl to your heart, love her with all your heart. See a starburst of magnificent, multiple colors that burst over and around you as you two embrace. See multiple stars in the heavens, stars throughout Ursa Major/Minor Constellation, or other constellations.

Give thanks to MaYa and all her Lady associates for showing themselves to you in this way. They are hugging you as you hug your sweet granddaughter.

Or go about all of this in your own unique way. Seek and you shall find. Ask and the door shall be opened unto you.

Be the Bear that You are!